I saw three striped headed chickadees out my window. And a wren playing on a palette. Then two wrens came into my house. Another peeked in yesterday but saw me and flew away. I can sometimes get the wind to talk to me. Either a wild or a gentle stirring. Yesterday I felt like time finally spoke. I know said a long time ago it was almost over. Well, me, always the hopeful one when I’m writing to you. Has it turned out to be true for you? I can only hope it has. As Carrie Elkins says, it’s been a long, long while since my face touched the sky. That’s a pretty song, Call it my Garden. That’s how I feel about now. The same glasses that fill me eventually fall and I take the pieces and I plant them all. And I’m thankful for it. I’ve had a hard, hard time of it. Like out of bounds to infinity. But yesterday I finally heard my conversation with God and the angels as it really has been. In my soul. Dear Beth, they said, it’s 2018 and there’s a restraint chair on every ward of the hospital. They announce when they are strapping someone in on the loud speaker. Dear Beth, you know David, right, you know Jim? Well how about this one or that one. That brilliant brilliant one, the math? Or the radio announcer or the financial analyst, or the musician? Beth, they’re doing their best, what about you? Who will speak to the system they are confined in their whole lives if not you? I said out loud to the goddess, oh my god I’d rather die than do what you are saying, I said to the angels in my soul everytime of course I will. I know, that doesn’t make any sense to them. How can I possibly be hospitalized five times in three and a half years unless I deserved it? Well mostly from sitting in my house. Or once because my car disappeared. But now I know the dialogue I have with God. And that has freed me a lot. Because I accept who I am. You could try it. What’s your dialogue like? You have a soul story that runs you unconsciously like I did. But now mine’s conscious at least. You could say I’m feeling hopeful. And blessed by who I am. How about you? Yes, I do become more conscious every day. And there’s plenty more days to come. I have so much love with me. So much good work to do. That’s my experience. And no one really takes that away from me anymore even though I used to let them all the time. Life is quantum. It’s a holographic universe. People have souls and bodies and cells that are designed by God. By nature. Who am I do discount that after years of experience with it? No one, really, although I’m still tempted to right now. That world of what they call science and medicine is a pretty insidious world. Doubt reigns. Come along with me for a minute. And believe in the beating of your heart. Who are you, my beautiful friend? I have had years now to practice my new life in the new world. Don’t you think it’s almost here? I do. Pretty soon I’ll be seeing you on the other side of this long dark trevail into covid and death. I look forward to it. Do you?
I am able to blog again. I don’t know why. It’s been blocked from me since June. But it’s a new season. I am not yet free. I have so much I want to do. So much I wish to say. But yesterday I put on my calendar “an ending.” Last time I wrote to you four long and work- filled months ago I said we were on the cusp. Well just yesterday we came to a new cusp. And once again I hope it’s the end to suffering and the beginning to life in wholeness. I have worked hard for you since I last wrote. And I have grown a lot. I read some chapters from A Rooted Body today. I wrote that four and a half years ago. And it said the new consciousness was with us. It wasn’t with you then, but it was with me. Then I went into a hell so deep and long that I changed completely into someone new. A finely crafted and honed version of my best and brightest self. And I still work at it every day and every night. And I have not yet set myself or anyone else free. But nature has another plan for me and you. And we’ve been seven months working as masters now. But not in embodied consciousness. In the auric field. Which is the land of the soul. The Pan Revolution is real. You heard about it in the nineties, right? Well it’s almost 2022. And the world went dark. And now we still hear it constantly. Dark. Dark. Dark. What do you believe in your roots? My roots feel both strong and tired. I have been through a long hard ordeal. So has the cosmos. I need to do what I do best. Find beauty. That’s you, of course. I hear now from source that there are sixty six billion of us. All ready to be masters, just like it says in A Rooted Body. All at the cusp of awakening say my roots to our lives of joy. I can now write again. That means something for me. I think that’s a first step. One I just got to today because something big ended yesterday. We go by cycles and seasons. And this is a season of work. Fall is busy. Let’s find nature together. Let’s look for source again and again til we find her. I am ready for something new. The world is too and we hear it’s Delta this time. Well. Is it that or joy and freedom? What’s our choice say after we have done all this work already? It says the time of the new world is here. Again. Hopefully this time we take it.
We are at the cusp of the new consciousness and these are brave and bold days indeed. We understand human nature now better than we ever have before. We see life after covid and Donald Trump. We see an end to the long tunnel of darkness of our souls. Our souls and our bodies are becoming one organism. We are cellular beings. We are reiki masters. We are one with the earth. Everyone has had so many choices now with God. And it hasn’t shown up visibly yet, not really for those that we know consistently choose the wrong path. And lately I have once again suffered quite a lot. But something has changed. And that something is me. And you too, my friend. Because as always we are listening to God. And just yesterday God said bad things to me. You would never believe the dialogues I go through with God. And you probably wouldn’t want to understand the suffering that it causes. And you don’t have to. Because I do. I do it because I am a sacred listener. I listen to everything that comes to me. And boy, is that a lot. But now after last night I finally can feel inside my very own cell the God that holds me. It feels like grace. And it feels like the cusp of the Pan Revolution. Feel for it right now. What do you sense? You should sense peace. Maybe you’re still bored and restless and sick of the old thing. But you are very, very different than you were in January, aren’t you? That’s because then things finally shifted for the world. Don’t pay too much attention to what the media is saying. It’s not really the truth. The truth is Joe Biden. Remember the first thing he did? He put us in the Paris Agreement. That makes him Pan. That makes him the center of the Pan Revolution. What is Barrack Obama up to? Where would he be but at Joe’s side? I know a lot that I can not say. And so do you. We just know now. We’ve always believed God is love. We’ve always believed in the earth as our mother. We’ve always listened to God. We are the sacred healers and the sacred listeners of the earth. And God is listening to us constantly. And God is beginning to move. Soon there won’t be a pandemic. You can feel it shifting. Some people are still clinging to it. But the rest of us are done. We know it’s time to live again. And we know we will never go back to the old pre-covid way of living. We are a changed humanity. So wear your masks. But loosen your mind. Open your heart and listen. Hear the birds singing. Pay attention to the ancient trees. Watch the lightening bugs return to the night sky. Don’t be afraid of people anymore because there is nothing to fear. God is arriving for the Pan Revolution. We are truly at a turning point in time. The timekeepers of the earth are releasing their ancient hold. Because blitzkrieg is over. Finally. We are no longer at war. We are entering a time of great peace. The war has been brutal. But feel your cell. Feel for grace. Feel for God in your heart. Feel for truth in your soul. Feel for certainty in your mind. Listen to God today, my friend. Just see what she says. She says to me, my love, my love. Shh. Shh. The Cusp has arrived with me in your grace. With me in your cell. Your body has roots. Your mind has ground. You are no longer that which suffers. You are something else entirely. You are nearly free.
Sacred union and reunion are our final goal to come out of confinement and live our wonderful, beautiful lives of promise in the green world and the living economy. Sacred union and reunion mean all of our dreams come true. They mean god and goddess are finally free. They mean truth and belonging and freedom and inspiration and abundance and nourishment and hope and love and all the positive qualities of God abound. What do we need to get there? I am the goddess Kali Ma. If you are a man that is reading this you are the god Pan. I am the only Kali Ma except Kali herself. You are not the only Pan. Every green man is a Pan. And a Michael. The arch angel Michael and the arch angel Agartha are our biggest angels. Yesterday 66,066,000 angels came to earth as earthkeepers. All manifestation angels. Seraphim. And you have one right now listening to you and loving you. This just makes sense. Under Joe Biden our world is returning to reason. There is rebirth. Feel for your angel. Use your instincts. It’s really important because now more than ever everything matters. I have a task to do for you tomorrow morning. I have to set myself free. I think I will. But as I write this I feel a little unsure and I have to think. I don’t know what I’m thinking of. Angels perhaps. Or good men and women. And the next generation. Who become their god and goddess selves the moment we are free. Do you taste freedom yet? I do. It tastes like joy. Because I can feel joy at work well done. At suffering that has finally completed its course. At everything promised being finally delivered. At a solid kiss on the lips and a conversation with my family that’s been burgeoning in me for years. I know what I am by now. I know who I sit with. Do you? You sit with the Dalai lama. We all do. You sit with Nelson Mandela. You sit with Thich Nhat Hahn. You sit with Barrack Obama. You sit with Joe Biden. These are the men you sit with. The green men who save the world. The papas. If you are an artista, a musica, a poetica then you sit with Bobby Mcferrin. It doesn’t matter anymore the others. Not the bad ones. Because we are with God but so are they. I think it stopped being painful. Because our light was never really touched. You can’t rape a light and overpower it and make it your own. You really can’t. No matter how hard you try. So, if they haven’t given up yet, they are about to. The end of apartheid has already come. The only people in apartheid still are those that choose it. Papa insists on that. All over the world the angels are preparing us for sacred union and reunion. See if you can feel for it. I can. I can feel that a lot of things have now been put into place. Tomorrow at 1pm Eastern Time Pan starts protecting us. Pan is quite the fierce protector. It’s really hard to imagine going to get my shot next Wednesday when I have the god Pan right in my auric field protecting me and holding me. What comes next after Pan protecting me and holding me is real men do to. And that is Saturday by 1pm. That’s already sealed as a mandate from god. I worked on it for three hours. What could go wrong? With reunion and sacred union? I just have to continue walking through. Until I finally arrive home with God. What are you going to work on today and tomorrow? Make it count. If you feel called to you can ask to come into sacred union with the Dalai lama. See where that takes us. And investigate your angels. Including Michael and Agartha. The Michael Brigade is active on earth. That’s our team of officers. All of them bull elephants. All of them following the right law. All of them working hard for us. So many things are coming to rights now with our teams. So let’s just take the final step. Help me get myself out of confinement tomorrow by doing your work today. Your most sacred work. And I will do mine. I love you. We’re almost done. And then we can really begin. Let’s just do it this time. Okay?
The blitzkrieg is finally over. It just ended four days ago. That was the Nazi death sentence that has been a part of our world for many, many generations. It was not just physical, it was in our souls. We are eternal beings. We live for hundreds of years. We can chose to go into the ancestor world and that is a nice place. We just love from there. Everyone on earth is now with God. Whether they know it or not. All good beings are being set free and all people that choose evil or apathy go to God’s justice. There is no escaping fate. You will be what you have always decided to be. Anyone that has hatred or bigotry in their hearts has to face God now. And God knows exactly what to do. In the last three and a half years since Reiki IV has arrived to earth with the angels we have had over sixty thousand choices to be aligned with God. A lot of people that used to be decent chose not to go with the right choice. And they are in 3D. The rest of us are in 22D. You might notice now that you’re not protected anymore from covid or ugly people. You might notice it all over the place now because everyone is in the same reality. We are right at this moment evolving as a species into homoluminous beings. That’s the next evolution of humanity. You should feel past a lot of difficulties. You should be feeling better and better in your body. If you still have anything to be released it will release soon from your cells. Then when your cells align with sacred source so will your circumstances. Your circumstances are the last thing to come. You will have money and resources because you are a part of the living economy. You don’t even have to work that hard. You just do what you love, but you are often challenged. In this world we have to think. We do not just get by. It is not enough just to be here. We need to express ourselves fully, to love life deeply and to truly belong to the world and ourselves. If you find yourself wanting to do something today that is sacred now that all of elders are returning and all of our young ones are shining bright call Grandmother Hawk to you. She is the one that will finally set you free with her partner White Wolf. Grandmother Hawk and White Wolf are our ancestors. All over the world. They are rainbow beings. They know the deepest truths. We think it is time to arrive home now. Mother Gaia is ready. So is the Sacred Mother Nada San. So is the goddess Kali Ma. So is the God Pan. The white buffalo calf is about to be born. That’s the prophecy for the new world. Call in your ancestors and speak to the animals. Then find your sacred medicine inside of you. The Nazi plague and the dark night of the soul is quite finished now. You are about to be in charge of your own future for the first time in the history of your soul. You have a sacred purpose. It is now time to live within it.
I was thinking about violence. And I really felt as if I had committed it. But I was told that I had not. Not by the one I felt I violated, that’s my son and he would never say anything unless pressed into it. But by my true love. I said I violate by insisting on doing what I’m told not to do. Which is talk and sing out loud in the sight. I’ve been honest about the sight, I have. But no one has ever accepted it from me. Not my children, not the doctors, not some rude people in the hospital that told me to be quiet. So my son says stop sometimes. But I cannot. My daughter says I can do it but I have to reign it in when she gets worried or when it goes too far. I’ve never really done anything for it to go too far. I’m just sitting in my house and the police take me away in handcuffs. And I talk in the sight as my work and my connection to God. What am I supposed to do? So many times I said fine, I won’t do it anymore and I was never not once allowed by God or the Dalai lama or my partner or anyone else that needed to talk to me. Yet I hate that I can’t listen to my son and just be normal. That’s what he asks really. For me to be like him. That’s what my daughter asks, too. So it feels like a violation on my part to continue to do something that I’ve been asked not to do. But really, I am completely isolated except for the sight. I only have brief interactions with people that are fake all the time. In the sight I have love and belonging and a sense of home. And I have none of that outside of the sight. Something about this paradox still hurts me very badly. Because I am never allowed to be whole. I have two worlds. The world of people, my son who barely looks at me and my loves and my coworkers in the sight. And one causes the other to be wrong. The right one is wrong for me, because I need much more than to be isolated and confined all the time. And I can barely stand to be fake with my neighbors. That’s rare anyway. The wrong world in the eyes of the people around me is my right world because there I am beloved and I work really really hard at really difficult things. But no one in the ordinary world would ever know it. They just see me as broken on disability. The only reason I am talking about this is because I wonder if you understand two worlds? Like, we have beloveds, but are they close beside us? Do we get to talk to them? Do we ever even try? I don’t try with my son. But he gives me very little leeway. He’s just not interested. And it hurts me a lot. I don’t know what it does to him. Maybe nothing. I’m really stuck around here. Everything is internal, not external. And sometimes I really hate it. The other thing is once someone comes into the sight with me I can’t have any more interactions with them in person. So I haven’t talked to my daughter in months. Or the few friends I did have for a while. That’s like this thing that is not understandable, why I as this person that I am in the center of this healing reiki called the sight can never have one ounce of proof about anything. I am totally not allowed to be normal in any way. I could be free of this in the next three to eight days. Or I could not. And I despair about which it is. It’s been going on for so long now. Three and a half years steady with no break. Twenty four hours a day of sight. And before that since 2001. I don’t know if you understand what I’m talking about. But probably if I’m not free, you are not either. Because it’s up to me a lot of the time to free you guys. Maybe all of the time. Could that be true? I’ve always been told exactly what my freedom looks like. For twenty years I’ve been told. And sometimes it’s supposed to be imminent. And it never has been. I’m really afraid things will never change for me. It feels so locked down all the time. So will you ask God for me? Will you attempt to be free and attempt to free me and all of us? I don’t think it’s up to me. But it is. But it’s really the collective me. And that’s you, too. So, thanks, my friends. I hear you are many in number. I never get proof of that either. I never get emails and my blog says I have one follower. So, yes, if you’re out there praying and loving and hoping and saying yes to me and to you and to love and to life then I’m so thankful. I really really want to be free. And I want every single one of your dreams to come true. You deserve it. A lot.
It’s now a 22D world. Every house and building now is 22D. That means everything stays the same unless we build it or demolish it ourselves. This is true all over the world. There are 22D people and 3D people now. A lot of people chose to be 3D. And that’s a shame for them. On December 25, 2017 God began 22D. Since then people have had so many choices to follow God. And a lot chose not to. But a lot of us chose yes. All kinds of people chose yes. Even ones that were perfectly ordinary or seemed bad in some way chose God. And some that seem perfectly capable of being good didn’t. So we have to look around and understand who is who. People in 3D will live ordinary lives. Unless they committed crimes and then they go to God for 15D justice. That includes what just used to be called ethics. Commiting ethical and moral violations is committing criminal acts. You know what I mean, don’t you? All the people who are normal in 3D will have the chance to come along by 2064. In 2064 it will be a full 22D world. So others will simply pass away. Like people have in covid. Covid was a choice people made. And so many people we thought were dead and so many animals are back as 22D beings. The nazis really stole our world. So did the doctors. Gold studies were everywhere. People were confined and sent away. It’s not what it seemed to be. Last evening we had an indigo moon and a pink moon at sunset. The sun rose and set at the same time. This morning I saw a pink moon for five full minutes. Then it went indigo. I’m watching what it does next. Do you understand? Everyone predicted a 5D world. But that’s not true. It’s a 22D world. The trees and the plants have all the way until December 25, 2021 to become their full 22D nature. So the earth will still be changing. And in 2022 we will have a full sacred eternal spring. The earth and the animals now have their full 22D auric fields. There’s a gas shortage and meat is getting harder and harder to get. We don’t want or need these things. Our cars are cellular. Or food is kind and loving to everyone and oh so nourishing. Now it’s a completely white sky and it’s the white moon. Do you notice the God light? Do you see 360 degrees of sky from somewhere around your house? So we have arrived at the moons. I believe by May 22 we will we have a fully realized earth. I also believe we will be on Eastern standard time with some places being two hours apart but no more than that. Are you at all sad about the people that chose 3D? I can’t tell. It seems to me that some people just refuse God. No matter what they were given, they refused it. I have been completely stolen on Lightening Seed. I have made nothing from my writing. So many people chose to do that to me and other authors. You might know of someone. It says right on there that they are stealing and they get money for free. I have been so stolen in my taxes. I am still on SSDI. I only got that because they had to give it to me. Who are these people that take whatever they want to? I don’t know. But we have best friends. We have elders returning to us. We have good, good leaders. We have most of our children. And we really have a beautiful world. So let’s move forward now. Let’s think in the next ten days of goodness. Let’s really study the sky. Let the 3D cars run out of gas. Let the meat eaters run out of meat. We don’t have to explain it to them anymore. And if they committed crimes the lawyers will make sure they know it soon enough. We have sacred men. We do. And sacred women, too. Something huge in me has changed. I have worked for the new consciousness for years. And I know that God has listened to me all along because I was told by God. And I know what I suffered with God. And I know that I can be who I am. It feels a little too brave and risky still to write this post. But I don’t care really. I hear the cars and trucks racing past my house. And I also hear the birds gayly singing. It’s an indigo day. It’s a pink day. It’s a white light/God light day. I always think of the monocan wedding blessing whenever I feel like this. Go now to your dwelling place and may your days be good and long upon the earth. So, dwell in your dwelling place. And be a sacred observer. You know what to do. You’ve already chosen. And so has everyone else. Try not to feel too sad or angry about the ones who have chosen nothing or evil. They know what they do. Even if they claim they don’t still. Look around and let yourself live in peace. The sacred mother is with you. So is the sacred father. Feed your cat sour cream and feed your dog tofu and pinto beans with cheese. Everyone will start to go to their right places very, very soon. Okay, loves? Okay, loves.
What? Everything real. What’s real? Me and you. And a tree. And a whale. For so long I have had something around me and throughout my world that says no to me. For the longest time I thought it was God. Now I realize it’s never been God saying no. And it hasn’t been me either. But it has been someone lots of someone’s. Some of them were forced into it. Because they always knew instinctively that if they tried to approach love something very precious and dear would get deeply hurt. Because they are masons. So I’ve lived without friends and lovers. Without fathers and uncles. Without brothers and cousins. And so have you. And the women have done their best. And so have we all. But I really know now that there is a beginning to living. A beginning to life. And maybe it’s today. An infinity day. May 8. Or maybe it’s tomorrow. Mother’s day for myself and my mother and my sister and my friends that are mothers and daughters. It’s not much beyond that. I’ve already had my medicaid cab and my shot. I’ve already told my psychiatrist about my books. I know a lot about a lot of things. I’m in love with so many friends. My kids are doing great, all of them. So, what is next? Besides reunion? Joy. Pleasure. Deep satisfaction. Food. Loving. Music. Writing. Rinpoche. Papa. My dad. My mom. My dog. My cat. A lot of goodness really. I know I’m nearly home now. Because my eyes say so. My own eyes say so. So does my knowing. One body, one mind, one you. One love, one heart, one truth. We all have the propensity for a rooted mind, a rooted body, a rooted heart, a rooted soul, a rooted essence, a rooted life, a rooted being. We all have the right to thrive. So thrive with me, my loves. I am happy. I am. But I am still confined. But today is the day when we all become master mennonite monocan masons. Under the Dalai lama as our sacred father. It is May 8. Think of eights. Think of infinity. Think of the love of the god and the goddess. Think of Kali. Think of Pan. And think of yourself and your light. It is brilliant. You are a unique star shining in the indigo cosmos. You are the sun and the moon. Light your way with love. You have all the answers ever needed. I trust you. Be well. Be happy. And be love. I love you, sweet. I love your kin. And I love your way.
I’ve gotten a lot of questions in the sight about what Sacred Medicine is. It’s in what you do. What do you do then? What if you’ve never done much of anything of value? What if you don’t feel called to anything? What if you don’t know your strengths or what you love? Let’s try a meditation. Sit comfortably with your feet on the floor. And relax. Breathe. Now pretend you are sixteen years old. Remember back to your sixteen year old self. What does he or she love? What are you fired up about? Where do you want to live? What do you want to do? Who do you want to be with? This should give you a tip. Now sit down with your journal and write. You will find yourself just knowing what your medicine is. You will find yourself being called to your calling. If that still doesn’t work ask a family member who knew and loved you well what you are like inside and out. Or a teacher. Or a friend. People around you sometimes know you better than you know yourself. Especially if they are loving and kind. People like you to succeed. If you’ve had no one like that then I bet you’ve always been like that for yourself and everyone else. So just look deep inside. You’ll find it. It’s yours. You belong to you. Don’t fret. Don’t worry. Just listen. Your medicine and your calling is easy to grab hold of once you acknowledge that it’s there. No matter how old or young you are. I’ve read so many books. I’ve always been called to be a writer. And I’ve found new things over the years. Like coaching and dance. And motherhood. So, find your first calling, then keep looking. You are limitless and so is the world you live in. Go back to school if you are unsure. Study something grand. It really doesn’t matter what your age is. Opportunities abound just for you. Go ahead loves, take your sacred medicine into your bones. Sing your sacred calling out loud in your own pretty way. You have so many gifts. Stop being afraid and use them. ❤️💚❤️💚💛💚❤️💕☕
Are you finding yourself to be more inspired than ever before? Especially with the birds singing their nesting songs? I am. It truly is becoming a healed planet. Every wren and every hawk now lives in peaceful harmony. Let’s let inspiration take us like the wind through our hair. What most inspires you? Is it a red coffee bean? Is it a yellow dandelion? Is it a pygmy elephant? Is it your five year old? Is it your fingers on your guitar? Close your eyes and honor right now that which inspires you. That is the goddess Kali Ma. She is the goddess of inspiration. Pan is the god of the forest. The forest and the mountain are home to our deepest dreams and schemes. Have you gotten your website up yet? If not, why not? Your tribe is already looking for you. Have you figured out your stewardships? So many joys await you. I really believe that May 1, 2021 is the beginning of all things free and good. If you are still suffering look tonight to the full moon in the deep sky. Open all your windows and your blinds and await the pink moon and the indigo moon. Make some nice passionflower, nettle, alfalfa, oatstraw and lavender tea and drink it cool in a mason jar. Really take care of yourself right now and forever. This is the living economy. It’s an artisan economy. And you are a beautiful artist. This is about to be the green world. All over the globe. Save your energy for Saturday and then do something really special. I believe in all of us. We have done so much work in the past two months. So much incredibly powerful work. It’s time to step into the grid now. The mason grid. The earth grid. May 1 is the first summer solstice moon. It’s a waning moon. Feed your birds, plant your summer flowers and enjoy a nice mocktail Saturday evening. The breeze is gentle on our skin. The sun and the moon have almost completed their work. The elephants and the whales have already arrived home. The coral reefs are blooming. So are the kelp forests. You have a few days left of uncertainty. Then you, yourself will arrive home. 68 days of angel flow on Saturday May 1 since the first day of spring February 22. The first full day of summer. When the oaks are fully leafed in green. Remember to breathe. And remember to soak in beauty. And remember to be kind. And remember to talk to angels and children and animals. And then you will be just fine. Call on someone if you need help. Offer help if you have extra to give. We are all one sacred tribe now. Be blessed. Be true. Be happy. Love to you, Beth