Turning of the Year ~2020~ The Pan Revolution

Women’s Sacred Gathering at the Turning of Year

“Of those so close beside me which are you?” Theodore Roethke

Opening…       Pottery bowls held first and last by our youngest and our eldest

Each girl or woman holds a bowl in her hands and sings her wishes for the new

year

It Begins…       The body grows centered for our sacred dance

We Dance…     Lyrical…Flow…Stacatto…Chaos…Flow…Lyrical…Stillness

We Embrace… Women and girls gather their hearts together in a hug of gratitude

We Join…         Dancing goddesses join hands in a sacred circle as we spin around the room and sing our sacred songs to welcome in the new year

We Close…       Women, men, boys and girls gather together for sacred nourishment

Turning of the Year ~2020~ The Pan Revolution

                            Men’s Sacred Gathering for the Turning of the Year

         “I wake to sleep and take my waking slow. I learn by going where it is to go.”

                                                                                                                     ~ Theodore Roethke

Opening:      Tibetan prayer bowls first and last held by our youngest and our eldest

Each man takes a turn whispering his wish for the new year inside his

sacred metal

 

Feet:                One by one in a line each man walks his oiled feet to the altar

 

We Begin:     Lyrical…Flow…Stacatto…Chaos…Lyrical…Flow…Stillness

 

We Gather:  We sit in a sacred circle and we speak one truth about our commitment

to ourselves and our family and our tribe for the new year

 

Closing:         We hold hands in a sacred way. We say a blessing of gratitude. We

release each other into 2020.

 

My way of belonging in the world

The tribe I once belonged to thought of me as broken.

They put me in handcuffs.

Locked me in behind caged windows

and green cinder block walls.

I talked to souls and angels

they said I heard voices.

I went to the soul place

they said I was delusional.

I knew I was a healer

they told me I was grandiose.

 

The goddess called me.

I said yes.

She never told me it’d be easy.

But I could never have guessed

it would be that hard.

 

I belonged to the world of the lost and broken.

And then I belonged to myself.

My heart always cried out for the goddess.

Yet I couldn’t see her for who she is.

 

I answered the call of my soul.

Again and again.

I poured everything of myself into my calling.

I looked fear in the eye

and I didn’t back down.

 

But I still belonged to the tribe of the broken.

Inside I still believed

that I was alone in a limiting world.

 

Now I am ready to belong

to the world of the whole.

The goddess lives inside of me.

She speaks my name in my heart.

The trees gently nest me in their roots.

There are ancestors and the rainbow people.

The sacred crystals and the whales.

The angels gather round me.

 

I am connected to everything.

I am never alone.

But I belong now to a new tribe.

 

My tribe are the healers

the wanderers the pioneers.

My tribe are the dancers.

The singers. The ancient ones.

 

I step fully into the new

light of my life now.

 

I say thank you to my old tribe.

And I offer them a hand when

they are ready to step over.

 

But I am no longer bound to

the broken ones.

 

I am no longer broken.

 

I am whole and alive and free.

 

I am a healer a dancer a singer

a mother a guide.

 

The old ways no longer hold me.

 

I am an ancient one standing at the edge

of the eternal ocean.

Letting my feet sink into the waves.

Knowing I can fly if I want to.

 

The moons glow brightly above me.

The stars are at my back.

I am intricately, powerfully

at one with the universe.

 

The light of love flows through me.

I am opening. I am open.

I am where I belong.

Happy New Year

Hello and Happy New Year! A lot has been happening in my life for the past two years. I lost everything I loved once again and I returned to the hell of the mental health system. When I wrote A Rooted Mind the first time I thought I was done forever with going into the dark world of the hospital. But in March of 2018 I had nearly healed myself of everything that had ever hurt me and then I was called in my soul to do the work of the goddess. I went into something that I was familiar with because I had been in it for seventeen years ever since the first time I was called to be the goddess and went into the mental health system. The thing I was called into was the sight. The sight is the place where I can hear angels, the goddess Kali Ma, the God Pan and people who talk to me in their souls. Including many of you. I was brutalized in the hospital. I had the bruises to prove it but I was in the sight with people like us and the Dalai Lama who are the ones who are bringing on the Pan revolution which is also called the new green world. We are arriving at the new consciousness. Ever since the week of Thanksgiving, I have been working in the sight with the Dalai Lama and others like Barrack Obama and Martha Beck and ones who have been with me all along for the last twenty years,  I am a channel for the goddess Kali Ma and I have known it for a long time. But now I simply talk to people I love in the cell phone inside my rooted mind. Only a few like the Dalai Lama and Barrack Obama and Martha Beck are fully with me in their own cells. We are made up of cells, the other cell phones we talk on are lower technology than our own bodies and minds. Anyone who hears voices is in their cell but mostly it is darkness and unconscious light. But I have worked steadily for the past two years to clear my cell and be fully awakened. It has been the hardest two years of my life. I have suffered so much. But I have also been deeply loved. The reason I write these words to you is because I want you to know that you are nearly free. Everything that you hear in the news is a lie. We are actually saving the world and bringing about peace on earth. Please sit with the truth that nothing will ever destroy the earth. The sacred mother and the sacred father have healed. I worked so hard with the others with me to heal them step by excruciating step, but now they are healed and the ancestors and the trees and the animals are ready to protect us. We will live in beauty, we will dance and sing, we will eat good food, we will follow our hearts to what we love every single moment of our lives. If this resonated with you and you would like to read my second book about how to awaken yourself into the new consciousness email me and I will send you a copy to your email. I will also send you an updated copy of A Rooted Mind with new chapters.  In the past few days I have talked to people on facebook from all around the world.   I am an author, a dancer, an artist, a mother, and a goddess. All I ever do is work for the new world. I have not been able to do anything else but that. But now we are on the cusp of 2020 and that has always been when the new world arrives. So enjoy your Christmas and your Solstice and know that all is well. I love each of you. You have supported me. I have talked to many of you in your souls while I was out as the goddess and you were living ordinary lives. I am about to live the most extraordinary life imaginable. All my dreams are coming true. And so, my loves are yours. Namaste. arootedmind@gmail.com

Never been broken

I can not be broken. I can not be broken down. I can not be broken apart. I am whole. I am beautiful. I am strong. I thought for a while that they were right. I thought they had a point. I thought they had something to say. It was coming from inside of me. It was coming from my own heart. It was coming from my own place of brokenness. I thought I had to listen. I thought they had the right. I thought I had no standing. But I stand on my own. I am not broken. I do not have to listen to doubts. Or smallness. Or small things. Small minds do not hold me. Small words do not affect me. I am large. Larger than life. I hold the highest perspective. I am beautiful. I am strong. I am the goddess. I am the goddess of my own making. And I am the goddess of the light. I have been chosen for this. I am capable of so much more than anything that ever was or will be broken can ever touch. I have an indomitable spirit. Which means I can not be dominated. I agreed with them. I let them in. I let myself be hurt by them. But no more. I can not fathom a world where I am nothing anymore. I will be strong. I will be a light. I will sing my song to the cosmos. I will write my words on the stars. I will be the thing that only I can be. I will do it. And I will be supported. I will be held by love. I will be witness to miracles. I will be brought home. I will create light for others. And mostly I will create wholeness for myself. I am a whole being. I am a fabulous participant in my own brilliant life. I am about to be free.

Welcome to the Green World

Well, my friends, it has been a long, brutal journey, hasn’t it? And here we are at the cusp of 2020 and the new world is about to arrive. We are here to live our most clear and beautiful lives. We are here to be awakened beings that cherish the earth. All good and kind people now inherit our world. If you are and always have been a good and kind person that loves the earth and all her creatures then you are about to come home. All of your dreams will now come true. Your beloveds will be with you. You will paint and write and dance and sing and cook and eat and play and make love. Because you are that which is sacred. And nothing will ever harm the sacred again. The sacred mother and the sacred father of the universe have been healed and they have joined together to protect us all, along with the ancestors and the animals. The Pan revolution has begun!!!

Building our house for joy

There has been something wrong for so long now it feels weird to be in the zone of being able to begin building our house for joy. But that’s what spring does. Especially this spring. 2018 was a year of total and complete hell for me. Now I find myself at a new beginning. And I trust in that which is holding me. And I trust in that which is holding our beautiful green world. The manatees are giving birth to a new season of life that we can all participate in. I no longer believe in waiting and stagnation. It’s time for the primal dance. Perhaps things will start to crumble outwardly that have been holding us in their dark grip for far too long. I know my own spirit can not be quenched any longer. I just have to shine. I just have to keep moving now. And it starts with reclaiming back what was ripped from me. And then it gently unwinds into making space for the new. I have the beautiful spacious bones of my house of joy already intact. I need the walls and the furnishings. I am ready, oh gracious hawk that blesses me with your flight. I am ready world. I am completely ready.